As I was sitting here reading the blogs of others, I realized that the Year was coming to an end and I decided to look back and see what I had done this.
My mind doesn't come up with much. A trip to South Lake Tahoe for Mother's Day, Great new way for me to eat that helps with my weight problem, A trip on a Train to Utah for a Wedding, and a trip to Boise Idaho for a family reunion. We if you look at it that way I have done alot this year. It has gone by fast for me. I look forward to another year of growth.
Yesterday I learned that I have been working so hard this year just to read the Book of Mormon front to back. Which I did and learned alot. Only to find out that it was good. But the Prophet Pres. Benson said in 1988 that we need not to just read that one but also the bible at the same time. Ok just getting thru the Book of Mormom was hard enough at times. Now this year I need to do it again and read the Doctrine and Covenants and Prearl Of Great Price, too. I'm going to try to do this I'm not sure how well I will do.
Yesterday, I gave talk about being prepared. That is something I need to do every week. I'm not a teacher, but I'm an adult in a class so I need to be ready to participate in class.
I've been talking to my daughter Melisa lately, her insight into things sometimes reminds me of my mother. I miss her when I her my daughter talk so about the church. Mom had her faults just all of us do, however she was a spritual woman, She knew when we were in trouble without us having to tell her. She was wise in her understanding of the church and scriptures. I still hope to someday be half the person she was.
I was talkingt my husband the other day, he made the comment that if it were not for me, he wouldn't be active in the church like he is right now. Sounds alot like my dad sometimes yet alot like his dad. I see him in my son more and more each day. He attends and does his calling, but if not for that I don't think he would come to church. He doesn't have the backing like my husband does. Then I see Roy in Mary as well, I wish I could see more of my mom in her, but right now I don't maybe someday.
The days seem long and drawn out right now. I guess that has to be expect this time of year. When its gray and dark outside all day. Depression can and will set in if I let it. I'm going to try hard not.
With the New Year starting to night I need to look forward now not backwards. I need to find something to look forward to. I not sure what that will be but I'm going to be going to the temple will spend sometime thinking about the future and where I should be going with it.
Well the days seems to be dragging so I clean my office and get the paperwork ready for the new year now.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
December thoughts 12-26-12
Sitting here trying to figure out what the new year will bring for me.
It has been a year a difficult times for my family. I know some would say that is nothing. But for this family it has taken it toll on us. We redecorated the living room, held Christmas at our house. But still nothing seems to change much. Just move this from here to there. I'm such a packrat. Not really a hordder just a pack rat. Afraid to get rid of something because I might need it in the future. Some things I haven't seen in years and I still come accross them and say, wow I forgot I had that, I keep it with the thought that I might need it in the future. Yeah packrat is my second middle name.
I do have to say that even though Christmas was not easy this year. We were able to get through with everyone getting things they really wanted. Even me. A New Microwave, A laptop computer(thanks to my Husband.), new clothes for exercising in ( size Medium, and yes I can wear them, yeah), a Wolfgang Puck Knife set, a gift card to Kohl's and a another gift card from Kohl's. I have been truely blessed this year at Christmas. My family was all home together for Christmas. That was the greatest Christmas Gift I could have wanted.
Things change and we all move on. This next year my son will graduate from College with a BS in Criminal Justice. I hope that he can find a job when he is done so he can do what he wants with his life. Take care of his family. This next year is looking to be an interesting one for the family and I am trying to be up and positive about it. I need too keep moving in the right direction for me and my family.
It has been a year a difficult times for my family. I know some would say that is nothing. But for this family it has taken it toll on us. We redecorated the living room, held Christmas at our house. But still nothing seems to change much. Just move this from here to there. I'm such a packrat. Not really a hordder just a pack rat. Afraid to get rid of something because I might need it in the future. Some things I haven't seen in years and I still come accross them and say, wow I forgot I had that, I keep it with the thought that I might need it in the future. Yeah packrat is my second middle name.
I do have to say that even though Christmas was not easy this year. We were able to get through with everyone getting things they really wanted. Even me. A New Microwave, A laptop computer(thanks to my Husband.), new clothes for exercising in ( size Medium, and yes I can wear them, yeah), a Wolfgang Puck Knife set, a gift card to Kohl's and a another gift card from Kohl's. I have been truely blessed this year at Christmas. My family was all home together for Christmas. That was the greatest Christmas Gift I could have wanted.
Things change and we all move on. This next year my son will graduate from College with a BS in Criminal Justice. I hope that he can find a job when he is done so he can do what he wants with his life. Take care of his family. This next year is looking to be an interesting one for the family and I am trying to be up and positive about it. I need too keep moving in the right direction for me and my family.
My everyday thoughts
Today, I am just a few chapters away from finishing the Book of Mormon I haven't done this since High School. I have bites and pieces but never front to back since HS. So I feel like I have accomplished something this year. I have ready things I haven't read before. So that is nice. They say everytime that you read the Scriptures you find something you didn't see the last time you read it. So I'm excited to finish it. It has helped me to keep going when I just want to crawl in a hole and stay there. Sometime the call I have takes all I have out of me. I end up wanting to helacopter everyone. I know I can't and that is so very draining on me. I need to find a place of safety and so far that has been the scriptures for me. I hope I can keep it up and read another one next year.
Other wise, its the same old thing day in and day out. Except for Vactions to South Lake Tahoe or Utah, I feel tired, not so much physically as mentally. I feel like I should be doing another 5K some where. Already the family is trying to help me with the gym funding by not keeping their memberships. I just don't know what to do. I feel like we need the gym to be there during the winter. I know I need to find the right time to get myself to the gym. Just not working out for me to go home and then try to come back.
Last night my husband for the first time made dinner from a Recipe that Mary was going to do. I was so proud of him it was wonderful. After words he was talking about what he would do different the next time. Wow he is changing about cooking. Which is nice new recipes makes it easier to cook. Hopefully no more boxed foods.
Other wise, its the same old thing day in and day out. Except for Vactions to South Lake Tahoe or Utah, I feel tired, not so much physically as mentally. I feel like I should be doing another 5K some where. Already the family is trying to help me with the gym funding by not keeping their memberships. I just don't know what to do. I feel like we need the gym to be there during the winter. I know I need to find the right time to get myself to the gym. Just not working out for me to go home and then try to come back.
Last night my husband for the first time made dinner from a Recipe that Mary was going to do. I was so proud of him it was wonderful. After words he was talking about what he would do different the next time. Wow he is changing about cooking. Which is nice new recipes makes it easier to cook. Hopefully no more boxed foods.
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